Toxic

https://twitter.com/serialxseven/status/1075409727801167873

If you asked me what I’d like for Christmas this year, there is one immediate idea that springs to mind. Sitting in the Gym’s bar after training today, scrolling through Twitter, the amount of stupid currently available to view via Social media is staggering, and more than a little bit overwhelming. My brain struggles at the best of time to keep up with who should be the person to root for. Right now, so little truth is easily discernible. 

I think I’d like to wish for some common sense to break out via Social media.

One of my overriding aspirations in life is to do it well: not to be overly greedy, or needy, to give back as much as possible and generally not be the person who gets held up as doing it wrong. It is a tough ask sometimes, but slowly the realisation has dawned that the best means to live your best life is not to expect anyone else to do the work for you. In fact, it should be a given that you set the pace with progress.

It’s also fairly vital not to create conflict where none exists.

It is really, REALLY easy to be the good person if you try. I never really grasped this for the longest time, mostly due to the fact I forgot how to exist independently to begin with. It’s hard to be the good person when it takes so much energy and focus to just keep yourself on a level surface. However, as time goes on, it gets easier. Also, most crucially, it becomes a way of gaining satisfaction that has nothing to do with your own progression as an individual. Enjoying other people’s enjoyment when you find it hard to do that yourself is totally valid.

I’ve only just learnt to do that myself.

2019 will have a focus on my achievements, but only when they are relevant or appropriate. This is not about me 24/7, and there’s more satisfaction to be gained when appreciating other people’s contribution to this journey.

You guys mean the World to me and that’s never going to be forgotten.